alas! there are but few among us that close their eyes like dying persons in Christ

It is 12:27 PM Monday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a somewhat warm cloudy day. We could use some more sunshine and blue sky, but we will take what we can get. I am right now fading fast. I am tired and sore from working all morning outside mowing and replanting wild plants. I plan to take a hot shower soon and lay down in a dark place.

I got up this morning around 5:50 AM thinking of a dream I had about pulled pork. I got up before Carol this morning. When I got up I made a pot of coffee and then dozed to 7 o’clock AM. Carol got up and I ate plastic waffles for a morning meal. After breakfast I wrote in my paper diary and read some more of a sermon by James Durham from his book ‘Collected Sermons of James Durham’ 61 Sermons. I decided around 10:30 AM to mow the lawn and replant Michigan native plants in our backyard. So has gone by this day thus far. Late this afternoon we will go down the street to have a meal with our oldest son and his wife and two little girls and their little dog Ollie.

Last night I spent the evening reading my books and went to bed around 11 o’clock PM. I read last from these two books-

‘The Collected Stories’ Paul Theroux

‘The Complete Gary Lutz’

So here I sit feeling weak in the knees. I will close to clean up and face what comes down the road. It is the last day of May 2021. Tomorrow it will be the first day of June 2021.

the epistemological importance of the incarnation

It is 1:11 PM Sunday afternoon on a sunny day. It is one of the perfect late Spring days that one encounters as the world goes to Hell.

I got up this morning around 6:37 AM. I was up before Carol this morning. When I got up I made a fresh pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer. I check my e-mail in the mornings and check the News. Carol got up around 7:20 AM and I cooked her an egg with muffin for breakfast. I ate a bagel with cream cheese for a morning meal.

Carol went downtown to Reader’s World Bookstore this morning. When she got back she left for church/Covenant Presbyterian Church in America a conservative Reformed evangelical denomination. While Carol was gone I wrote in my diary, filmed a video, and read from a book titled, ‘God In Himself: Scripture, Metaphysics, and the Task of Christian Theology’ by Steven J. Duby. I also read some of a sermon by James Durham this morning from a volume titled, ‘The Collected Sermons of James Durham’ 61 Sermons. Last night I read from these two books-‘An American Procession-The Major American Writers from 1830-1930-The Crucial Century’ by Alfred Kazin and ‘The Collected Stories’ by Paul Theroux.

I am not sure what I will read this morning. I have next to me to possibly read, ‘The Complete Gary Lutz’. Carol is right now cleaning the kitchen and plans to take a nap this afternoon. Existence keeps disappearing. Tomorrow will be the last day of May 2021. This coming Tuesday will be the first day of June 2021. My brother Mike has a birthday in June, he will be 64 years old. Mike is on his third marriage and has a four year old daughter/he has two older daughter’s from a previous marriage who have finished college.

Well, I suppose I will close to drift through this time/drifting on a death flow.

a link to the divine mind

It is in the death flow 1:57 PM Saturday afternoon here in West Michigan. It has been a sunny windy day. It is miracle we are seeing blue sky and not a red blood colored sky today.

I got up this morning around 6:37 AM. I got up to find Carol in her living room chair. She told me as I was walking to my chair she had already made a pot of coffee. I got myself a cup of coffee and messed with our main computer.

Carol left to have breakfast with a friend around 7:55 AM. I wrote in my paper diary, read, and filmed a video for my Youtube channel. When Carol got home from having breakfast with a friend Carol said she was leaving to visit a friend in Fennville MI. I told her I was going to go pick up a coffee bean order and then go to Action House to look at their used books.

I got home from my errands around 11 o’clock AM and Carol got home around 1:50 PM. Carol just left for a third time to get dirt for funeral pails. I am sitting here in front of our main computer writing in my online diaries. Existence keeps decaying. I have been reading from a book titled, ‘An American Procession-The Major American Writers from 1830-1930-The Crucial Century’ by Alfred Kazin. I did buy a book at Action House ‘The Collected Stories’ By Paul Theroux. I saw also at Action House a set of the ‘Aubrey/Maturn Seafaring Novels’ 18 volumes and called Carol on my cell phone to see if she wanted them (I already had a 20 Volume Set of the “Aubrey/Maturin’ novels). Carol told me to buy them only ten dollars and the money goes to a good cause, so I bought the 18 volume set for my wife.

I suppose I will close to see what came in the mail today. Existence keeps disappearing.

salvation in Christ

It is 1:58 PM Friday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cold wet damp windy gray day. It feels like Autumn today. Where did Spring and Summer go this year? I suppose due to being in the Last Days we won’t be experiencing the Four Seasons any more. Life will become endless darkness.

I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. I got up to find my wife in her usual spot in our living room. I made a fresh pot of coffee and then made a pot of oatmeal for breakfast. After breakfast we had devotions and then left for Bluestockings Books Store for a Dollar Bag Sale. We have been giving our used books books to Bluestockings for in-store credit the last couple of months. I got these used books at Bluestockings dollar a bag sale-

‘The Shape Of The Liturgy’ by Dom Gregory Dix

‘Forty Gospel Homilies’ by Gregory The Great

‘Salvation In Christ: A Lutheran-Orthodox Dialogue’ Edited and with an introduction by John Meyendorff & Robert Tobias

‘Luther and the Old Testament’ by Heinrich Bornkamm

‘Tradition And Interpretation In Matthew’ by Gunther Bornkamm, Gerhard Barth, & Heinz Joachim Held

At Bluestockings I also bought these books that were not apart of the dollar a bag sale-

‘An American Procession: The Major American Writers from 1830-1930-The Crucial Century’ By Alfred Kazin

‘Lost Boston’ Photographic history of the City of Boston Mass. by Jane Holtz Kay

‘The Death And Life Of Great American Cities’ by Jane Jacobs

‘The Hungarians: A Thousand Years of Victory in Defeat’ by Paul Lendvai Translated By Ann Major

We left Bluestockings and headed home for lunch. Before coming straight home we stopped at Southside Goodwin to look at their old used books. I found these used books today there-

‘In the Darkroom’ A Memoir by Susan Faludi

‘Akenfield: Portrait of an English Village’ by Ronald Blythe

‘Hope in the Dark: Untold Histories, Wild Possibilities’ essays by Rebecca Solnit

‘Restless Angles: The Friendship of Six Victorian Women’ biography by Helen Heineman

So this day has gone by thus far like it was suppose to from the beginning of Time. I will close to recover from an ordeal. Last night I mainly read till bedtime from a book titled, ‘The Paradox Of Sonship: Christology in the Epistle to the Hebrews’ by R. B. Jamieson.

The Great Christian Tradition

It is 1:43 PM Thursday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a cold gray cloudy day. I think it is 69 degrees outside this afternoon.

I got up this morning around 6 o’clock AM. I got up stumbled to my living room and sat down with eyes closed. I dozed till almost 7 o’clock AM and got up went to our kitchen and ate three plastic waffles for a morning meal. Carol ate yogurt and granola for breakfast. After breakfast Carol prayed and left to do errands.

I spent the morning read from a book I received in the mail yesterday titled, ‘The Paradox Of Sonship: Christology in the Epistle to the Hebrews’ by R. B. Jamieson [Studies In Christian Doctrine And Scripture]. Carol got home around 10 o’clock AM. We shampooed the carpet throughout the house this morning. So the morning went by.

Caleb will drop Josie around 2:45 PM this afternoon. Carol will be up then I am sure.

I got out to read this afternoon a book titled, ‘Americans in Paris: A Literary Anthology’ Edited By Adam Gopik.

I will close to read and write. Last night I read till 10 o’clock PM ‘Americans in Paris: A Literary Anthology’ Edited By Adam Gopik and went to bed. Now it is another day. The Home Heating And Air Conditioning guys had installed by 4 o’clock PM our new furnace and a new central air system/conditioner yesterday. Carol wrote them a check after they were finished.

We have water leaking into our basement recently. Carol and I bought a channel thing and placed it under the spout of our house side drainage pipe in hopes the water will gush out into the slope of our lawn hill.

God’s plan to communicate knowledge of himself to us

It is 11:50 AM late Wednesday morning here in West Michigan. The sun just came out this morning. It rained throughout the night into the morning hours. I am falling asleep so I need to get to the point before I pass out.

I got up this morning around 5:55 AM. I got up made a pot of coffee and ate a bowl of cereal for breakfast. Carol and I talked about spiritual matters and prayed. Around 8:31 AM Home Heating & Air Conditioning drove into our driveway to install a new furnace and a new air conditioning unit. Carol left around 10:30 AM this morning to get her hair cut and then meet a friend for lunch. I mainly spent the morning writing in my paper diary and reading from these two books-

‘God In Himself: Scripture, Metaphysics, and the Task of Christian Theology’ by Steven J. Duby

‘The Life of Jesus Christ’ Part One, Volume 2, Chapters 41-92 By Ludolph of Saxony

I started falling asleep as I was reading so I stopped and put away my books. Now I am writing in my online diaries. Since I can’t stay awake I will close to drift into the Afternoon hours.

Last night I read till bedtime from a book titled, ‘The Complete Gary Lutz’. I will close for now.

the human body

It is 2:34 PM Tuesday afternoon in the death flow. It is a warm gray cloudy dismal day. It has been predicted to rain this evening. We need rain here in the Midwest. The Midwest is turning into a Dust Bowl.

Caleb just dropped off Josie for us to baby-sit till Emily gets home from work. I told Josie she would find Noni in the backyard doing yard work.

I took a nap this afternoon, because last night I did not fall asleep till almost 1 o’clock AM. I went to bed around 11 o’clock PM but I just laid in bed waiting for sleep to overcome me. I always wonder when does one actually fall into a total state of sleep. Sometimes I am about to fall into the sleep when I wake myself up because I am afraid a vampire will attack me and suck out all my blood.

Carol just came in from working outside. She told me the furnace people called and are able to install a new furnace and air conditioner unit tomorrow/they found two units in Grand Rapids and someone canceled an install so we will have new furnace and central air system tomorrow. Get this cell cooled off.

I have been basically reading the last two days from a book I received in the mail yesterday titled, ‘The Complete Gary Lutz’.

I did mow the lawn yesterday. Due to the severe drought this morning I watered our small plant kingdom. I wonder if I will see wild flowers blooming in our wild flower garden this Summer?

Well I will close to drift. I need salvation in Christ Jesus. I need to get saved.

the infinitely complex movement of the natural year

It is 1:08 PM Monday afternoon here in Western Michigan. It is a warm cloudy damp day. There is some sunlight also this afternoon.

I got up this morning around 7 o’clock AM. I got up made a fresh pot of coffee and then messed with our main computer. Carol and I had eggs and toast for breakfast. After breakfast I wrote in my diary and we had morning devotions.

Late this morning I mowed the lawn front and back. I cleaned up after mowing the lawn and have been basically sitting feeling wasted. Carol made spaghetti for lunch. Now I am writing in my online diaries. I really have not read anything this morning or this afternoon. Last night I basically read all evening from a book I have read off and on before titled, “The View In Winter: Reflections On Old Age” by Ronald Blythe.

This afternoon I might go down into the lower level and lay down and sleep/take a nap. Right now Carol is cleaning the kitchen. We were going to shampoo our carpet but it is too damp/humid.

I will close to feel wasted/drained of all life energy.

make me firm in confronting the dangers of the world and the snares of the devil

It is 1:58 PM Sunday afternoon here in West Michigan. It is a gray damp moist afternoon. It is not as hot as was yesterday though. When I went to bed last night it was 83 degrees.

I got up this morning around 6:30 AM. When I got up Carol was as usual sitting in the living room reading devotional materials. I do not know what time she got up this morning. Right now she is taking a nap.

I spent the morning writing in my paper diary and reading from a book titled, “The Life of Jesus Christ” Part One Volume 2 Chapters 41-92 By Ludolph of Saxony. Carol went to Covenant PCA around 9 o’clock AM and was home around 11:45 AM this morning. She was late coming home from Covenant PCA because some ex-military men in her church shared their experiences in battles/Memorial Service for fallen warriors.

I do not know what I will get into this afternoon. I cleaned the kitchen and took out the garbage after Carol went to bed. I suppose I would read something this afternoon. I finished reading last night a slim book of essays titled “Essayism On Form, Feelingm And Nonfiction” by Brian Dillon.

Well, I will close to drift.

there was really nothing much left to lose

It is in the death flow 3:43 PM Saturday late afternoon. It is another hot day here in West Michigan, but there is a nice breeze to keep things somewhat from over heating. I have had a normal day thus far. Carol and I are right now baby-sitting Cora Leigh. Emily is suppose to have picked up at 3:30 PM but she hasn’t appeared. Emily and Josie dropped off Cora earlier today to go paddy boating somewhere.

I got up this morning around 7 o’clock AM. When I got up Carol was in her spot. I got a glass of cold water and sat in my spot in the living room to wake up to another day of my life. God has given us each a certain number of days to prepare for hell or heaven. This life is a preparation for the life or death to come. I live in fear of wasting my days and going to hell. I live my days in the awareness that I need to get saved before the day of grace comes to a close. After death is only divine judgment/eternity is fasting approaching and soon my eyes will be closed in death. My constant prayer is when my eyes open when I am awaken for judgment I won’t be sentenced to eternal damnation.

I mainly spent the morning hours writing in my paper diary, wandering my cell and reading from a book titled, ‘Essayism On Form, Feeling, And Nonfiction’ by Brian Dillon.

Carol today did stuff around the house and also did some yard work. She has also baby-sat Cora Leigh. This evening we will go down the street and have taco’s with our oldest son and his family Emily, Josie, Cora, and their little dog Ollie. Tomorrow will be a Sunday and another week begins.

I suppose I will close to wait for night to fall. We can not escape God’s plan for our lives/the decrees of God. Either you are in or you are out.